Depressing thought for the day

I've been about 5 lbs. away from my pre-pregnancy weight for a while now & I think I've finally accepted that I must have been a Fat Ass PRIOR to getting pregnant cause 5 lbs. cannot make this big (no pun intended) of a difference in my body.

I'm still a size larger in pants, shirts are about the same but I'm not doing myself any favors by wearing them too large, and the boobs have stayed Post Liam size and I think they are here for the duration.

I think my shape has just been altered quite a bit due to the C-Section since most of the added mass is in that area and is quite different in, hmmm, appearance than my normal Fat Ass. I know it's only 5 lbs. and I should be happy with that (and I am) but it really just dawned on me today that I must not have looked that good to begin with, you know? And I have water weight to thank for these thoughts mostly because now I bloat during ovulation, PMS & MS whereas before I never really did so that's like a whopping 2 weeks out of the month that I'm bloated & disgusting in appearance AND feeling.

And there's your Moment of Crap for the Day...

Bunk Ass IKEA Ghetto Scale

I knew that shit had to be wrong seeing as it had me weighing in at the SAME WEIGHT I was when I went into deliver my ONE YEAR OLD. But then the horrible, horrible thought came creeping in that maybe, just maybe, I had gained back the weight I had managed to lose & was in fact teetering near a very scary number in the scale.

This visit to Camp Carolina I remembered to get on the digital scale & turns out I have just about 7 lbs. to lose to be at my Pre-Pregnancy Weight - not that I even want to stay at that weight but at least I knew I wasn't at my Going to the Hospital to Deliver a Baby Weight still.

So, yes the scale at home is broken. Thankfully.

Wowzers

I got my bathing suit yesterday & it's a keeper but my "baby" boobs also seem to be here to stay as well!

I'm not a very big fan, no pun intended, of the large boobs & I tend to wear clothes that don't really let y'all know that they might be bigger than they appear (like car mirrors!!) but you really cannot get away with that in a plunging bathing suit. WOW.

And also? The other day I had a pre-pregnancy fitted tank on & it FIT yet The Girls were just about resting on my [second] chin. I didn't feel quite comfortable going to the pediatrician with The Girls hanging out so I changed BUT I *think* I mightcould get away with it out on Date Night...which we don't ever have so I suppose I will not be wearing that shirt again ;)

And if it's not TMI on top of the already confessed TMI - for the record I am wearing my mom's bras that she has handed down to me - usually for comfort reasons. So yeah. the boobs. wow.

shit.

I just remembered that I was going to switch back to 1% milk after I stopped breastfeeding & that was how many months ago?

damnit.

Shocker!

**NEWSFLASH**

I AM WEARING A PAIR OF PRE-PREGNANCY CAPRIS IN MY OLD SIZE RIGHT NOW!!!

You have no idea how excited I am - esp. since I'm not only wearing them but they arent killing me!!

CELEBRATE!